While I was relaxing here in the not so sunny Jeju-do, South Korea, I began to have a panic attack about what to do about my future. I'm 21, and going on 22 in two months. I think I accomplished quite a bit for my age. I graduated college in three years with honors, and I've been teaching in South Korea for about 10 months. A person would think, "Hey! I can go places!" Yes, I can...but I have no idea where I want to go. Over the past year, I have been hashing out future plans. All of which are normal. First, I wanted to go to graduate school in California. Well, I didn't make the deadlines, and then I decided to apply for graduate school in Korea. Why? I liked it here (notice past tense). Now, as my time left in Korea dwindles to a mere six weeks, I think I definitely do NOT want to stay in Korea. I love it here, but I definitely cannot live here. For some reason, it is suffocating.
So my next best choice is to go home to sunny Los Angeles. Do I still want to go to graduate school? HELL NO. Why? Because academics are a suffocating bunch as well. I've been wanting to open a bakery for a while now, but I haven't had to guts to make this happen because I fear commitment. I do want to open a bakery because I love baking, more than I love reading, writing, and being haughty. So to open a bakery, I need funds, not a PhD in Chinese literature. Where will these funds come from? That is still up in the air.
While opening a bakery is a dream, I want to keep my options open, so I applied to teach English in China. I also want to do some freelance writing through blogging because print will die/ has been dead. So we will see how this goes.
I'm just trying to sort things out!
xoxo
Mel
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